10 things or more that my husband doesn't do or can't change

1.  like and comment all my FB posts.
2.  shower me with lavish gifts.
3.  sweet talk me all the time in response to heart to heart talk.
4. forgive me right away when i did him something really bad.
5. his clothing style
6. eating veggies
7. like everything that i like doing
8. remember all important dates of our relationship
9. his family
10. say a good apology right away.
11. say all the right things and get too serious.



exceptions:

My husband was specially patient and understanding with me when i was in pinas. He takes care of me. He's like my assistance, chaperone, confidant and shock absorber. When i get really mad, he consoles. when I get mad at him, he tries to give me a hug and comfort me after a few minutes of fighting. I remember telling him i'm inscecure about the way i look, so i had to wear make up everyday. and he tells me I'm beautiful no matter what, with or without makeup , with all the creams on my face, if i haven't brushed my hair or my teeth, if i stink, he still loves me because i'm the prettiest in his eyes. i remember when i throw tantrums and eventually he would try to tell me "stop crying na, come here and give me a hug" and if i don't stop crying, he'll continue to say "sabe ng wag ng iiyak eh, ayoko na ng naiyak and he'll hug me closer to him....and he'll tell me he loves me. i also remember that one time in cavite when i started screaming at him in the room because he was ignoring me the whole time while he was watching tv... i can't evenr emember anymore what the whole story behind is. i think it's about me going to sampaloc. because he told me we'll go back there and i was hesistant and i told him "wag tayo magtatagal ha" and he got mad at me for that comment and started ignoring me. eventually he got calm and just hugged me while i was crying. I will not forget those moments when i feel like i'm the one who messed up because i became too sensitive and he still showed me that he's there for me.

i should learn to appreciate the things he does and not to focus and what he cannot do. I should avoid being too sensitive and harsh with words when I fight with him. 

1st Month...

One month ago, I took a leap of faith. I got married. It was not close to a fairy tale story, but I got my own magical day. I know that after that, it's not all sweet and lovely. Marriage life is something more than that. I know I'm facing a new challenge. I am optimistic. I obsess to be the best wife that I can be to my husband Chris. But i know it's going to be tough. I am the kind of person that gets easily at annoyed at everything that doesn't seem to look too agreeable in my favor. I'm short tempered. I burst in anger when my button is pushed. I don't have the kind of confidence that I will be the perfect wife but I know I wanna be one.
One month after the wedding, I decided to create this blog so I can write down all things I learned, need to learn and will attempt to do in order to be the best person for my husband. I don't wanna end up alone. I wanna grow old with him. I created this blog because I'm forgetful. I wanna remember all things I've experience that led me to realize my mistakes, my strengths and all things that will help nurture my relationship with Chris. I wanna talk to myself and tell myself, "you did your best". I wanna be able to remember things that I did that made him mad and what I did to revert that. I wanna remember the things he did that made me angry and what we did to overcome that problem. I want this to be my personal journal of what went wrong and what we need to do to change that. I know this sounds like a purely punching bag kind of outlet. Beautiful things come naturally and we never forget them but here I want to remember that things that went wrong so I can avoid them and create more beautiful memories with my husband. This is not a blog were I just rant and complain and stuff. This is the reflection of myself and what I wanna do to be a better wife and partner. I tend to do things that are not right over and over and it seems like, no matter how many times they happen, I keep forgetting things that I shouldn't have done and I have regret doing. I wanna be the best person for myself, for my husband and for the children we will have in the future. With God's help I know He'll guide is in our journey.Happy 1st Month to my husband. You'll never know about this blog but in my heart, I wanna let you know, you mean everything to me.